Fan

I'm asking my dad to get a really loud fan to block out noise again.  My last 2 broke.  I'm hot but guess I'll wait until the spring to get a fan to blow on me.

Feeling Bad

I keep feeling like I need to go to the restroom, pee.  It's not in a really bad way.  It feels like I'm being punished for not getting up.

Irritation

I'm irritated.

One of my ear plugs was wet.  My glasses seem okay but unwashed.

My face is feeling manufactured.

My legs were swirling while I was running last night and now had knots in them, which I haven't had.  It felt like it was pushing chronic but didn't hurt too much though was a bit tied up.  My eyes have a feeling of like warm fuzz but not in a cute way though not like disgusting nor anything, hoping that's not a strong literal possibility for anyone.

Warm

I think I was warm at the mall, yesterday, even at night after I left.

Plans for the Day

Maybe, I shouldn't even go anywhere today.  I did my nails.  I can go for a walk in my old walking shoes (which are very thick and rounded like a rocker) and wear one of my nice coats.  I have some soup.  I can make more turkey and cut up some vegetable, think I got an organic zucchini, just ate a bunch of greens.

It's a nice day for a walk.

Still Tired

I just had to go to the bathroom and post my dream, maybe post something to the police...

Ow

My crotch hurts.  My heart was pumping a bit fast yet not heartily.

Chills

I'm getting chills.  :6

Heart Pills

Yes, I take them every day.  Along with a complete supply of other pills I feel I need to take now.  They made my heart feel more solid and less like there was a vein sticking out of it, though now I feel a bunch of veins.  It made it stop feeling sorta cut into.  Not sliced into but like I dunno something sorta glowing and fuzzy like meshed in it.  Not that it's glowing nor fuzzy.

I also started drinking tea, all day, when my parents aren't using the house.

Oh, and my dad's dad died long before I was born from a heart attack.  He has relatives in Cleveland.  Also, he was a mortician, owned and ran and directed a funeral home, with a Bachelor's degree.  He cut up the bodies, though I don't know details.  I thought he cremated people, but I heard later he didn't.  Also, it's interesting, my dad's youngest sister ran away from home.  She's born in April 1960.  She seems to be the most typical person of her age, though I don't know how stereotypical.  Or whatever whyever I just thought to type just that.  He died that year, when she was 14.  She got money for college yet didn't go, while my dad's sister born in 1953 had to work and got a Master's and became a police and is now retired without kids.  She lived with someone and then married him.  He already had kids, who were half Spanish, though the boy has white hair and light brown eyes.  My cousin has light brown eyes and light brown hair and her dad's last name is Italian, though she wasn't supposed to ever meet him.  His last name is Sicero like Sicily.  My aunts both have Barrett as their last name.  My mom's sister's kids are half Indonesian.

ALERT

Something else important.

I threw up and my heart almost exploded when I tried to clean it up.

Also, when I was at my dad last weekend, after that my heart kept pumping quickly and I had to keep moving around.  (It was better after I went to bed this one time.)

Bathroom!  #2 soon.  Is that from throwing up?

Letting It Out

Awhile back, I couldn't pee as much after awhile.  I just let like a hot stream of pee out at the end, like pouring tea.  I don't know why that would come off as shit, but I mean it in the best possible way.  It's hard to recall what that means, was it like blood pouring out of my butt, not exactly.

Impoov-ment

I'm #2-ing better.

Lifestyle

I don't know, but my female thing hurts a lot.  I mean it did growing up.  It shouldn't, but I had problems with my lifestyle.

The Pain!

So, females who don't have kids will always want me to feel sorry for them?

Like it says on my website, I ended up taking psychiatric pills I didn't need for 1 - 2 years, which made me lose my female thing for over a year and gave me a small tumor that desisted.

When I came home from college, my female thing was so heavy I had to wear a lot of adult diapers, and it didn't hurt!  It felt so good!

My Female Thing

The funny thing is my female thing is ending and was pretty light, though it didn't slow up so much at the end.

I threw up this morning.

ALERT - no need to panic

I'm getting flashes of pain in my uterus.